Less than a month to go, 24 days to be exact till I sit for my exams, am I prepared? Guess I'll just have to wait to see for myself. At least theres a bright side, after my exams, the hols await me, the days where I no longer have to put on a uniform await me. I know its gonna be hard for gurls, they all have to make an effort to wake up extra early just to decide what to wear, and pray that nobody else in campus is wearing the same clothes, shoes also perhaps, earings? I dont think earings matter right? =\ For us guys, no planning requred, just select and wear.
Total time required ?
Gurls = 1 hour ++
Guys = 15-20min
In the end both males and females looks equally great..So guys win this round.

Of course I'm looking forward to college life, but I'm surely gonna miss secondary life too. I mean, the memories you carry with you, one big difference will be the toilets. I doubt you'll find anymore interesting "graffitis" on toilet walls, all directing to educators or the head. No longer will you have to hold your breath or endure the natural "aroma". So if people think public toilets are bad? You haven't seen the worst yet.

Moving on with a more decent posting...
Who do you think has stronger and more enduring legs? The female or the males? The answer is clear and simple. Lets look at football, a pitch with 22 guys running around trying to score, they run for a full 45 min, a short break, and continue to run for another 45min. Lets look at basketball, more guys running, baseball, more guys running ( I know females also participate in these sports, football and basketball, but they're slower ). So who is the winner here? Guys? Lets do a simple test, you place a male sprinter on one side, and on the other, a normal female. Their goal? run towards a mall with a big sign that says " Grand Sale Up To 80% Discounts! ". Females have proven again and again that they dont need to take a break during a shopping spree, they can spend hours and hours walking, shopping, and not feel tired at all. The funniest and the most bizarre thing is, they spend 5 hours walking around, but they only purchase 1 of 2 garments. The winner for this round?
Gurls = Legs tiring out during shopping is never in their dictionary
Guys = Walking around in malls shopping without break? 1-2 hours MAX
Gurls take this round...

End of round 1 results : Guys = 1 Gurls = 1

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Gazing up at the skies,
the stars are no where to be found on this beautiful night,
not a sparkle or a twinkle to shine a light.
I lie down on the field, shutting my eyes,
praying and hoping deep inside,
that my prayer will be answered by the other side.
But as I opened my eyes,
there were still no stars in the skies.
As I turned and look at you,
I finally understood why,
why was there not a single sparkle in the sky.
It is simply because someone stole all the stars,
and put them in your eyes.
Your eyes sparkle even in the darkest nights,
twinkle everytime to make things right.
I'm forever lost while I gazed into your eyes,
but I'm not afraid as long as you're by my side.
Wait, the last 2 lines don't sound right. =(

What do you see each time you look into the mirror? A reflection of yourself? Or a reflection of emptiness? Emptiness inside, feeling lost. You splash water over your face, expecting the cooling sensation to take your mind off things, but you're efforts were in vain. You're mind starts to swirl. You know you brought this over to yourself, and yet, you can't seem to let it slide. How do you cope? You know it ain't easy, but you still hang on, each day...Why? You live each day, showing no regrets, but deep inside, you're feeling every single sting. You kept on telling yourself, what should be done, but no matter how hard you try, there will still be traces, traces in the sand which can't be covered up, no matter how hard to wind blows. You're tough on the outside, fragile within, but you never show your emotions, yet, the people closest to you, they know. They're the ones holding you together each time you crubmle. You feel sorry at times, that you can never care for them as much as they cared for you, that you are not there each time they needed you. It takes time, for broken pieces to mend, traces to fade. You know that, you know people care, but you don't know what to do anymore...

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Just this afternoon, I was having my lunch in a restaurant, saw 2 kids, a small girl and a small boy, playing and running around, I remember me and my bro were like that too when we were young, about 3-4 years old. I still remember, it was in Selangor Club ( the one in town ), everyone clad in formal attire would be enjoying their meal, my bro and I would be running around, making alot of noise, I have to admit, it was really irritating for the people dining there. Few days later, a letter was sent to my parents, asking parents to control their children's behaviour - make sure they don't run around at the club. Few days later, we went back to the club. This time, in the dining area, a sign was up, "Please ensure that your children don't run around" or a sign saying something like that, I've forgotten, it was more than 10 years back, till now, I still remember my bro and I were having so much fun back then.

Back to the present, the 2 kids were having so much fun. Each of them taking turns, " Daddy! Daddy! I wan step on your feet, then you walk me there k? " The father did what the kids wanted, the face on the kids says it all, they were smiling and laughing the whole way. Then something happened, the small girl, called the obviously elder boy by his name, I found it weird, shouldn't she be calling "KorKor" or something? Not wanting to ponder upon that for too long, I continue my lunch while watching them play. A woman walked by few moments later, the father said to the boy " Your mummy's here already, time to go.." The boy went to the mother's arms and both mother and son walked out the door. " Bye daddy! " That was the little boy's reply. I stop munching at that moment. I started to understand, why did the little girl called the boy by his name, instead of "KorKor" or something similar. This time the father carried the little girl in his arms and sat down. "Lets go, mummy's here already. " the father said few moments later as a woman walked over. All 3 of them exited the restaurant, moving the opposite direction the Mother and the little boy went. It was all becoming clear to me, I was saddened by the sight. I know its hard, especially for the little ones, not having an opportunity to turn to both his or her father or mother when they need to, only having the chance to turn to one.

Those who are going through these circumstances, I can't say I know what you're going through, but, I know one thing, you all are the strongest, you all possess the strenght and courage within which I can never imagine to have. My appetite for that hour was gone...

If you ever need a shoulder to lean on,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to listen,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to share the moment with,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to pour your heart to,
I'm here.
Why am I doing this for you?
Cause when I needed a shoulder,
yours' was available.
When I needed someone to listen,
you spend hours listening.
When I needed a friend,
you were always there.
So its the least I could do,
to be by your side everytime,
and each time the entire world walked out on you.
I'll always be there.

Another 30 days to my exams, wish me luck kay. So far, I seem to be on the correct path, the path which would actually lead me to score in my exams. Everything seems right so far, I'm recovering from my multiple unwell symptoms and my results ain't that bad, even though I knew I could've done better. No matter, I just gotta look ahead, and hope for the best, for I know the best has yet to come...

You're not alone,
when the lights go out at night,
when you're feeling lost inside,
you're not alone.
You're not alone,
when your world is falling down,
I will be the one around,
you're not alone.
~You're Not Alone by Shayne Ward


If you ever need a shoulder to lean on,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to listen,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to share the moment with,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to pour your heart to,
I'm here.
Why am I doing this for you?
Cause when I needed a shoulder,
yours' was available.
When I needed someone to listen,
you spend hours listening.
When I needed a friend,
you were always there.
So its the least I could do,
to be by your side everytime,
and each time the entire world walked out on you.
I'll always be there.

The semester is coming to an end, a big shoutout to all of you guys, for everything, all the memories will surely be treasured, best of luck to everyone. Thanks a bunch.

As soon as I woke up on Sunday, I knew I was in for a long day. A few steps, seems like thousands. Fatigue was kicking in during the afternoon. I still managed to take the long troublesome walk to my room to study. The next that followed caused me to suffer, maybe suffer is a strong word, um..caused me to feel a little unwell. It started off with my entire body feeling like it was on fire, god knows how high my temperature was. Each time I closed my eyes, I felt the heat scorching my face and my eyes. But that was only the beginning...

The next morning, soar throat and throat irritation kicked in. I sat by my bed, downing few mouths of water but nothing seems to make me feel any better, nothing seems to help me to overcome my tiredness. My first cough in the morning caused my throat to hurt, immense pain, I prayed that it was my last cough of the day, but it wasn't. As if it wasn't bad enough, runny nose joined in. It was the killer combination - Fever, throat irritation, soar throat, runny nose.

It was 2am on a Tuesday morning, my eyes were wide opened. Everytime I lied down, my mind kept spinning, filled with thoughts, useless ones, kept me from sleeping. Finally got some rest round 4... My condition worsen when I woked up. It was time pay a visit to the doc. My temperature was sky high, 38.5. According to the doc it was really high =.=" So I got the usual meds, panadol, cough medicine etc. At 11pm, I decided to call it a day, with hope that I could actually get some rest. But once again, woke up round 2am, this time, my mind was filled with different thoughts - Plastic anemia, transplants, ( all from watching HOUSE, the best drama ever, when i'm sick ) and many others, all useless once again. 3am, it was only at that time, did I fell asleep again.

So today is Wednesday, I'm definitely feeling better compared to the past few days. The sick me didn't have the enthusiasm to turn on the computer at all, that explains the late update. Anyway, hope I get well real soon, 30+ days to examination.

"Mummy! Mummy!" She called out loud.
Her little voice drowned by the noise of the crowd,
In the hustle and bustle of people hurring about,
It was easy to ignore a little girl's shouts.

Clutching her teddy bear in her arms,
She searched the sea of faces in panic and alarm,
Her mother was here just a moment ago,
Where she was now, the poor thing did not know.

Slowly but surely she started to cry,
Tears fell like rain from her big blue eyes,
The harder she sobbed, the more terrified she became,
When she suddenly heard a voice calling her name.

"Emily!" There stood a man dressed in white,
His robe radiated with a dazzling light,
On his back a huge pair of bird-like wings,
Upon seeing him she immediately stopped crying.

"Tell me, are you lost?" he asked gently,
She nodded her sweet head vigorously,
"Come," he said lifting her onto his shoulders,
"We'll find your mummy, together."

Up he flew into the sunny blue sky,
She gasped with delight at this man who could fly!
She looked down below at the crowds of people,
She could see all of them without any trouble.

"Look theres mummy, the lady in red!"
The flying man smiled and nodded his head,
He put her down carefully onto the ground,
Near the lady who was frantically looking around.

"Mummy!" cried Emily, and ran to her mother,
Who saw her coming and hurriedly embraced her,
"Oh Emily, please forgive me! I thought I'd lost you,"
Choking back her tears, Emily replied,"Me too!"

She stopped for a moment and turned around,
But the kind, winged man was no where to be found,
In her heart, Emily knew as she went on her way,
That her guardian angel had come to her rescue that day.

As you're reading this please bear in mind,
That I will be beside you anywhere anytime,
As your guardian angel and your friend,
To pull you through till the very end.

Few more days and the holiday ends, and its back to exams once more. How I wish they could quit wasting our time and just chunk us the Major Exam tommorrow. The main exam is like, uh.. 9, 10 days, but our trials lasted for at least 2 months. Even at this very moment as I'm writing this, I still feel the guilt of not studying, my mind constantly reminding me that I have less than 2 months to achieve the results I want - straight A's of course. Guess it's time to wake up from my long sleep afterall, who am I kidding here, the major exam ain't tommorrow, it's in less than 2 months time, so I think I should really spend my time wisely =D ....studying, instead of watching Korean Dramas =.=" I'll leave it right here...

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For once,
I have nothing to talk about,
my life,
simple for now.
Or you can say I've no inspiration,
to write at the moment,
only clouded by guilt.

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I'll just share something with you all...


"Mummy! Mummy!" She called out loud.
Her little voice drowned by the noise of the crowd,
In the hustle and bustle of people hurring about,
It was easy to ignore a little girl's shouts.

Clutching her teddy bear in her arms,
She searched the sea of faces in panic and alarm,
Her mother was here just a moment ago,
Where she was now, the poor thing did not know.

Slowly but surely she started to cry,
Tears fell like rain from her big blue eyes,
The harder she sobbed, the more terrified she became,
When she suddenly heard a voice calling her name.

"Emily!" There stood a man dressed in white,
His robe radiated with a dazzling light,
On his back a huge pair of bird-like wings,
Upon seeing him she immediately stopped crying.

"Tell me, are you lost?" he asked gently,
She nodded her sweet head vigorously,
"Come," he said lifting her onto his shoulders,
"We'll find your mummy, together."

Up he flew into the sunny blue sky,
She gasped with delight at this man who could fly!
She looked down below at the crowds of people,
She could see all of them without any trouble.

"Look theres mummy, the lady in red!"
The flying man smiled and nodded his head,
He put her down carefully onto the ground,
Near the lady who was frantically looking around.

"Mummy!" cried Emily, and ran to her mother,
Who saw her coming and hurriedly embraced her,
"Oh Emily, please forgive me! I thought I'd lost you,"
Choking back her tears, Emily replied,"Me too!"

She stopped for a moment and turned around,
But the kind, winged man was no where to be found,
In her heart, Emily knew as she went on her way,
That her guardian angel had come to her rescue that day.

As you're reading this please bear in mind,
That I will be beside you anywhere anytime,
As your guardian angel and your friend,
To pull you through till the very end.

~Aside from the last stanza, the rest is not my original work.
Got my inspiration from somewhere,
Hope you enjoy reading it as much as I do.

It's 12.50, waiting at Times, I thought I had the TYPICAL Malaysian timing figgured out, being 20 minutes late, but I was still the earliest. Couple of minutes later, Jae Han came, finally someone... to play pool with. Guess it was the right decision after all to kill time, 'bout 1.30 then the organiser, Mike shows up, talk about punctual and time management. Where was everyone? Me and Jae Han were told that the show was at 2, and we're suppose to be there at 12.30. Only to be told again that the movie's at 4, I was speechless for minutes. Once again, just to kill time, we headed to Coffee Bean, had a few drinks, chatted a lil. Around 3.30 the next person came, Chiak, I no longer want to talk about punctuality anymore. Went to the cinema after that. While I was standing at TGV, waiting to enter, I spotted this cute girl clad in casual top and a skirt, talking with an accent, seems to be from an international school. I seriouly think she was cute, but Jae Han they all didn't think so, so I ended up getting remarks like " OMG, no!! You call that cute?" , " She's below average la " , "You call that chun ar? It's nothing la ", I guess everyone has their own individual taste then, guess my expectations don't match with my peers high expectations,the model body and looks . Anyway, it was time for the movie, Rob-B-Hood. If you haven't watch that movie yet, I suggest you do so, worth watching. Right after the movie, bought a book, rushed home and headed to my Grandma's place for dinner.

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Playing in my ears,
music had and always will be part of my life,
they bring back memories,
actually shedded tears listening to them.
Through the lyrics,
I experienced joy,
through the lyrics,
I experienced sorrows.
But, when it's all set and done,
after the music hits the last note,
the sorrows will disappear,
thats what makes music so special.
The melody is irreplaceable,
as a life companion which will always cheer you up,
no matter the situation.
Thats why music is part of my life,
and it will always be till the very end,
I hope that it will be part of you too.

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