Every ticking sound from my Titus watch...

I listen....

Seconds past....

As I peered outside the window towards my surroundings. The first thing which caught my eye was a huge billboard about ICT learning above the highways, everything seem so normal. My eyes wandered a little further up, and there it was, a widely spread ocean, the light breeze eased my eyes, the relaxing sensation was all I need to keep away the competitive and tense atmosphere building all around me. I felt calm, felt as though I was in a room all alone, with no worries, and yet not feeling lonely at all. I was looking directly towards the blue skies...

Minutes past....

My attention was back on the History paper on my desk....

11:30pm~
"Ride with us, roll with us, fly with us, come with us, on this journey" the lyrics echoed, I felt the beat around me, in me, as Pop Shuvit was rocking on the stage. I glance at my watch, 30 minutes to go, thats all the time we have to gather everyone, thats the time we have before the fireworks go off, thats the time we have to be next to everyone.

15 minutes to go, our group split, went looking for other people, scrambled all around. And time past,
The countdown started,
10....where was everyone?
9....few of us were already waiting outside
8.....what about the rest?
7....our attention turned to the stage, as Joey G was counting off
6....5....4....3....2....1....MERDEKA!!

Fireworks shot up towards to skies.. The skies above Ikano and The Curve....Beautiful, Lighted, Booming.
Things would've been more perfect...
If the spray thingy didn't get all over me,
If the group hadn't split,
If everyone was together,
If the fireworks display was longer,
If the bunch of people at the corner wasn't trying to sell their country flag for RM10,
If only you..
If only...
You were there....
Right beside me...

Its the hols, and yet, I had the audacity to wake up at 6am, got myself suited up, and off i went...jogging. Gloomy skies, light breeze, and yes... the "oh-so-powerful" strong fragrance of horse 'shyt and urine fills the air. I can spend 2 extra hours in bed, sleeping comfortably, but instead i chose to breathe the 'morning air'.

Well nuff of that, so I came back, relaxing my tired legs as I sat down flipping through the papers. As usual, news about Siti and Datuk's wedding were printed. If all of you would think with me for one second, is having your grand wedding aired live on local television such a good idea? and even allowing the public to attend it? So there you are, standing tall on one of your most important day of your life, beside your wife-to-be or future husband, walking table to table, acknowledging the presence of your love ones and friends, introducing your soul mate to them, and then you stop at a table. You see faces you've never seen before so you expect them to be your partner's friends. You turn to your partner, waiting for him or her to introduce you, but they turn back at you, their expression tells it all, who are these people? Yet, some of the public actually fancy the idea of the wedding being AIRED LIVE, whats up with that? You talk about recent events happening around us, they'll be lost. Just mention bout Siti's wedding, everyone knows about it.

Lets face it, we all know that celebs get most of the attention. Heck, even reporters prefer celeb news over some environmental or nature related news. Siti's wedding captured front page headlines couple days back, but why don't I see the extinction of leatherbacks appearing on front page headlines? I see people following up on the wedding updates day by day, wouldn't it be great if the same amount of attention and interest could be showed to the leatherbacks?

People are aware about celeb news like the wedding, but are they aware about things happening around us? Just to list a few...

• At LEAST one child dies every minute, suffering from Pneumococcal disease
• Every 3 seconds, a child dies from extreme poverty and aids
• And yes.. the leatherbacks are becoming extinct =.="

So i'm done with the papers, that brings me to this, blogging... I'm suppose to spend time studying later, but I wonder will that be achievable? Guess the guilt of not studying hasn't kicked in yet, and I doubt it will, maybe the weekends perhaps? I surely hope so... I sat in my chair, spinning in circles, will I be able to live up to my parents expectation which required me to score like hell?
(*note to all - score like hell means seriously score, score till its impossible to score anymore)
(*mental-note to self : definitions like that could be excluded, everyone knows what you mean)

Before signing off, I would just like to wish Yi Lyn and Jin Ern, Happy Birthday! May all your hopes and dreams come through!

So guess i'm back where I started blogging the first time, BLOGSPOT . More flexibility..

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Ever thought of becoming another person? Maybe a celeb? A millionaire? Or the only thought you have is to dream to be the way you are now, living each day? What about changing your personality, or who you are, just to suit a special someone? or just to "click" with the happening bunch? I'll admit people do change when time goes by, change for the better, not for the wrong reason. I mean no harm dreaming to fantasize about living in paradise, but changing who you are, just to be welcomed by certain people, its simply outrages. I'm not talking about migrating to a country and suiting yourself to the local customs, I'm talking about impressing and fitting into a group. Change your bad habbits? yes please do, but not change your whole. You may be able to change how a person reacts in front of you, but, can you really change how a person thinks? how a person express themselves? how a person wants to be heard and remembered? Can you really change all that? If you can, think for one second, what makes us different from one another then? Skin colour, looks? Heck peel of the skin of a green apple and a red apple, the inside will always be the same. What sepparates the two is its own taste, its either sweet or sour. Imagine if all apples are sweet, what fun will that be?

Everyone is different in their own way, and yet, some of us refuse to accept who they are. If a person does not fufill a certain standard, expectation, quality in their personality, a barrier is created in between. Language is not an obstacle in our way, stopping us to communicate and mix around, but flaws seen in a person becomes the main support for the barriers. Language is just something minor.

So once again, should a person change just to be accepted by a minority groups? Personally, I dont think so. I think the minorities should try accepting a person for who they are, how special they are, though sometimes, advising them to change lil for the better is okay, considering that I know what he or she had done, so I guess it's okay for a slight change to blend in, but not change everything. I'm starting not to make sense, i've read that sentence 3 times, and its still a blur.

365 days a year, 8760 hours a year, 525600 minutes a year, 31536000 seconds a year, I don't think spending each day keeping negative images and impressions about someone is useful to anyone ( Why do I keep using the days, hours, minutes thing =P ) . Don't you think its a waste of time? You do the math...

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Just shifted here from friendster blog, dont mind me laying off long entries for now...

~Jian
Always here for U...