Alas, the long wait is about to be over, another 4 days to go. So far I've been doin al'right, well thats what I think at least. Chemistry was hell but at the same time, it went from hell to not-so-hell. I don't think I had much of a problem with objectives, maybe few mistakes here and there, but nothing close to 10% wrong perhaps? Subjectives on the other hand, I lost the will to think. I flipped open the first page, and there staring back at me, was a GINGER, of all things, a GINGER. So I went on reading the question, maybe it'll be something like --> " This is a GINGER, can this be eaten? " Instead the question was "what sickness can ginger cure?" I starting digging my homemade-remedy-from-my-mom book in my head and started thinking, why didn't I pay attention to this chapter anyway. I finally decided on an answer " Windy / Bloated Stomach " LOL. So basicly, the subjectives wasn't a stroll in a park at all, in fact, I dont think one could even stroll, crawl perhaps? Crawl in the park =.=' okay time to stop there. As soon as it hit 2 in the afternoon, the next paper began, experiment writing and all, I was relieved that I was able to answer the questions, as far as how many was correct? I dare not say. Now, I sit here, 2 more subjects to go, Moral ( why do we even have this subject ) and Biology, lets just hope that it won't be anywhere near hell....
This is Jian, signing off, good luck to everyone sitting for their exams.

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I opened my eyes to a new surrounding. Nothing was familiar at all. In fact, everything was pitch dark. I threw my hands frantically just to get hold of something. The sound of breaking glass filled the room moments later, I had just hit over something. Where am I? Something wasn't right. I struggle to find any source of light, but my efforts were in vain. There I stood, in darkness, not knowing what to do next. My hands continue searching and at last I got hold of some curtains, I drew opened the curtains wanting to see the shining light, but everything was still in total darkness. No wonder I wasn't feeling right at the very start........ I had lost my vision..blind. I collapse on the floor, not accepting the truth. I crawled all over just to find a door, to escape from this nightmare.

I turn the doorknob and I made my way through everything blindly. I ran as fast as I could, not thinking about the consequences. The next thing I knew, I felt a dislocated ankle. I fell from the stairs, thumbling and falling awkwardly, landing on one of my ankle. I continue crawling as my tears roll down, I was in pain.

I held my head up high, pushed myself up, I was blind, but it seems as though I know where I wanted to go. Dragging along my dislocated right foot, I went on. Bearing the pain, holding back the tears, I was told to be strong, even though I know it in my heart it hurts. Everytime I felt the piercing pain, I shifted my thoughts on something else. Long after, the pain wasn't affecting me at all. It seems like miles, but I held on, blinded. Moments later, I find myself on the ground once more, this time, the pain was coming from by lower torso and my head. I couldn't move. It seem that I was knocked over, by a person. I heard footsteps around me. Walking back and forth. None of them offered me a helping hand, I was left on the ground. Some even trampled over me. I couldn't see the figures but I heard and felt everything around me, happening to me. I couldn't bear the pain any longer, I screamed in agony, but was ignored. My instinct told me to just give up, but something told me to hold on, only for that much longer.

Just how long more would that be? Minutes, hours, days, I passed out, not knowing anything...

I finally opened my eyes, gaining sight for the first time after so long. I knew it then, knew all the pain everyone was suffering, and I felt it. Felt it in every part of my body. I stared below me, watching, I'm glad that I'm able to stand here, from above, guiding everyone, every person, sharing the pain and suffering, for I'm everyone's guardian angel.

Few more days, I wont exactly say the suffering will be over, 'cos is ain't really torture, but more like an obstacle which each and every one of us have to face, sooner or later. These last few days, lets just all hang on, and do our very best, and don't give up till the very end. Even if you've made mistakes in the past, now is not the time to cry over it, nows the time to prove to yourself to everyone, so put your whole into the exams and do you're very best till the very end. Good luck to all.

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I opened my eyes to a new surrounding. Nothing was familiar at all. In fact, everything was pitch dark. I threw my hands frantically just to get hold of something. The sound of breaking glass filled the room moments later, I had just hit over something. Where am I? Something wasn't right. I struggle to find any source of light, but my efforts were in vain. There I stood, in darkness, not knowing what to do next. My hands continue searching and at last I got hold of some curtains, I drew opened the curtains wanting to see the shining light, but everything was still in total darkness. No wonder I wasn't feeling right at the very start........ I had lost my vision..blind. I collapse on the floor, not accepting the truth. I crawled all over just to find a door, to escape from this nightmare.

I turn the doorknob and I made my way through everything blindly. I ran as fast as I could, not thinking about the consequences. The next thing I knew, I felt a dislocated ankle. I fell from the stairs, thumbling and falling awkwardly, landing on one of my ankle. I continue crawling as my tears roll down, I was in pain.

I held my head up high, pushed myself up, I was blind, but it seems as though I know where I wanted to go. Dragging along my dislocated right foot, I went on. Bearing the pain, holding back the tears, I was told to be strong, even though I know it in my heart it hurts. Everytime I felt the piercing pain, I shifted my thoughts on something else. Long after, the pain wasn't affecting me at all. It seems like miles, but I held on, blinded. Moments later, I find myself on the ground once more, this time, the pain was coming from by lower torso and my head. I couldn't move. It seem that I was knocked over, by a person. I heard footsteps around me. Walking back and forth. None of them offered me a helping hand, I was left on the ground. Some even trampled over me. I couldn't see the figures but I heard and felt everything around me, happening to me. I couldn't bear the pain any longer, I screamed in agony, but was ignored. My instinct told me to just give up, but something told me to hold on, only for that much longer.

Just how long more would that be? Minutes, hours, days, I passed out, not knowing anything...

I finally opened my eyes, gaining sight for the first time after so long. I knew it then, knew all the pain everyone was suffering, and I felt it. Felt it in every part of my body. I stared below me, watching, I'm glad that I'm able to stand here, from above, guiding everyone, every person, sharing the pain and suffering, for I'm everyone's guardian angel.

So I finally got my internet back up and running, one whole week without internet access can be really painful, of all things, why must the lightning strike the line, taking my modem along with my network card to the afterlife. According to my bro in Aussie, GOD wants me to study. I'm in the middle of my final and the most important exam of the year, but no harm using the com once in a while i guess.

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Now, my bro back from Aussie, half way through my SPM examination, another 5 papers to go. Lets just say so far, everything was okay, I mean, do-able. The first 2 days of my exams, I actually had the nerve to wake up middle of the night, really crazy, looking back now, I wondered why, should have been prepared before all of this. Looking back now, all the past days, brings back thoughts. Just today, a friend of mine "vandalised" - notice the inverted, its something he do everyday so it's just like a habbit, can't really say vandal =P, a classroom. The projector board hangging on the wall was brought down with a loud bang, chairs crashed everywhere, sadly though, everyone including me came out of the class laughing instead. The boards hangging outside every class was "strip" off all its stripes, which will be now used on people bedroom doors. These things dont just happen anywhere, it only happens here.

Memories...sad and happy...joy and sorrow.... we experience them everyday. Live with or without the past, bearing the sorrow before and now, know that you're living for what lies ahead, not whats behind you. Turning back the sands of time only to remember joy, if not, dont turn the hourglass at all, just continue on. Everyone of us has something to hide, whether its a habbit or an incident in the past, no matter what it is, when the time comes, you have to bury them once and for all. Why do you plan to save someone who is drowning when you're already at the bottom of the sea? The more I type, it seems to be going nowhere, more and more crap.

Next paper on Tuesday, wish me luck kay? I'll be doing the same.
I know all of us can do it, few more days,
hang in there for the last few papers,
don't bother waking up in the middle of the night la,
wasting time...thats what i think though...
Jian signing off...
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A big shoutout to couple of people...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFFANY!!
sorry I couldn't get you a present...
"cheng" you after exams k?

Happy Birthday KARmun (23 Nov)!
Take cares in Aussie...

For the past few days, I'm having some difficulty connecting to Streamyx. It all started on Friday night, maybe I was just plain unlucky, but on the day where I'd make full use of the internet, everything went wrong. After trying for over 2 hours, tweaking the modem, settings, everything, I gave up. Went on watching TV instead, on a Friday night. So the next day, I rang TMnet up, I was all prepared to be put on hold, or prepared to face the answering machine, cause its always "All our agents are currently busy, please hold, we'll attend to you shortly" or something similar. But, as soon as I dialed, and pushed a few buttons, an agent took my call right away, I think his name is Akmal, friendly guy, TMnet! give that guy a bonus or something. Few minutes later, he transfered me to Technical Assistance. Heres when the nightmare started. My early preparation proved useful afterall, I was put on hold with the constant reminder of " All our agents..bla bla bla... " and the really annoying background music playing. And whats worst is, my mom was using the house phone that day, "boiling porridge" with my aunt from Canada, so I had to resort using my handphone instead. I stared at my watch as I see the minutes go by, there goes RM1, oh, there goes RM3, oh wait, there goes another RM3. After 15 minutes, my call was finally attended. As usual, I had to follow a few procedures. After everything was done, they decided to assign me a technician - ITS ABOUT TIME! .

So I wasn't online for the past few days, but, I decided to try my luck today, and who would've guess, I can connect without any difficulty, and... the technician is still coming on Monday or Tuesday. Heh, at least I still have some problems to complain to him - frequent disconnection, difficulty in connecting, slow speed etc. This brings me to this, blogging, decided to post a new entry since my last post was ages ago. I think this is going to be my last entry for now, at least till my exams are done, maybe I'll update days between my exams, see how it all goes.

Another few days to go and it's graduation, all of us will be parting ways shortly. Shortly after graduation, SPM ( O levels ) starts - exam period 2 weeks. So till then, its Jian signing off.



No...!! I'll be missing her concert!!! Jolin!!