Exam week is finally coming to and end, well, almost. So I had Biology and Maths today. Since last year, I'm constantly struggling just to cope with Biology. Just to get a high credit, for me, it had always been an uphill task. For once, today, I felt that I could actually achieve that, thats what I'm hoping for. Kinda surprised that I could actually do my essay, for the first time, I actually understand my essay, it meant something, it made perfect sense, it's not the usual bull- I crap about just to fill the spaces. Maths was quiet easy, I learned something new right after the exam, P_ij actually means "horizontal" and "vertical" ! aha! Thats one question which I thought was a printing error, so there I was, praying hard, closing my eyes, randomly choosing an answer. The outcome? My prayer was answered, I got it correct, amazing....

So, these past few weeks, I'm actually kinda hooked on Korean dramas, how did that happened? I wonder... A person who doesn't even bother watching Korean dramas, one day, turns on the TV, watch 5 min of his first korean drama ( Marrying A Millionaire ), the next thing you know, he's busy following every episode. Does he stop there? No. He follows another drama ( My Girl ). Weird.. Speaking of weird, last weekend, my parents actually told me, they saw a nice movie on Astro, I imagined some premiere movie or something, but it was actually " Freaky Friday ", the weird thing was, my mummy - thats what i call - was more of the horror movie fan, and my daddy, he was more of the chinese action packed with 'kung fu scenes, out of no where, they both ended up watching Freaky Friday, weird...but Freaky Friday was seriously a nice show, forgot the time when I actually watched that movie, maybe 2 years back or last year? Now i'm just looking forward to My Girl, 8.30pm 8tv. Listening to music " Jolin in the house, DT in the house, our love in the house..."

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Reliving the past,
its not something many will choose.
But, what if, you had no choice at all?
You're force to live the way things are, everyday.
Words, imaginations, thoughts,
triggers the past,
crowds your thoughts.
Whats there to be done?
Face it? or run,
and keep on running,
for the rest of your life.
Running relieves you for a certain time,
but, how much stamina you actually haved left in you?
As time passed, your legs hurt,
your muscle aches, cramps,
you feel tired, exhausted.
Instead of feeling exhaustion,
maybe its time you give it a thought,
on how to face it instead of running,
ask yourself questions,
what?
why?
And once you've had the answer,
you never have to continue,
running on that same track for years,
with the same worn-out shoes ever again,
cause the path to the stadium will be shut, tightly.

~Does it actually make sense? LOL!
No matter what the pain you feel, be it inside or outside, keeping your grief bottled up isn't the best way, and will never be, shoulders are there around you, ears are there, waiting, waiting for you.

School was quiet, with no exams for today(thursday) and tomorrow, everyone seems to be sleeping at home. The early school hours started off with a scholarship talk from Taylors. Then it was classes as usual, well, suppose to be. The first period of the day, was finally the time for me to shine, in many ways which I had never imagined before, I was playing football. Being one of the few skilless players ( other sports is fine, but footy, I'm LOST ), stand-pass-kick was my normal routine, no dribbing involved. Jeff reinjured his ankle that game, he's one guy who actually gives anything for football. So in the end, Sashi had to actually step in as a physio, twisting Jeff's ankle, the weirdest thing happened when he starting moaning, more like pleasure than pain, whats with that, its school guys! snap out of it! With half of the class not present, the noise level was a little lower, mostly because some of us were filled with emotions after finally knowing our exams results. Though that didn't stop us from enjoying the rest of the day. So after school, Jien and I headed for tuition. That day, tuition was extra tiring, considering I didn't have the time to catch a nap after reaching home late. So basicly, the whole tuition, my head was fishing, drooping, coming up again, and then drop. The 1 min toilet break I had to freshen up, made all the difference, splashing water on my face never felt so good =.=" I was all awake again.
All of that happened yesterday...

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I tried lying to people around me,
I tried lying to myself,
but,
no matter how hard I try to hide it,
people still notice,
guess it wasn't that easy after all...

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Its the weekends, so I'll guess I lay off the books for a while... for now at least. Ever since we were born, we were told to excel in our studies, get good grades in our exams, so we'll be guaranteed a job, financial security and lead a happy life. Yet, now we see jobless grads all over. Does education play a major role in our life? Of course it does, without education we'll be incomplete. But, does it GUARANTEE a successful life? I mean its good to get flying colours, don't get me wrong, but in the world we're living in now, theres more to life than just getting good grades, we must enjoy life. In those days, just by completing high school, just by having a degree, you could get a job anytime, just by driving a small car , you're considered rich, those were the days. Now? A degree don't secure you a job anymore, a degree shows what are you're qualified in, in these days, everyday actions decides the next. It sets the routes you're going to take. Its up to you to lead a successful life or a dull one, have yourself working around the clock everyday making money for someone, or have people working for you? Choose to wait for an opportunity, or take the trouble finding one and puting it into good use? Decisions and actions create opportunities to success. Flying colours, education, are there to support, being the pillars of success. You need them both. With just one you will be living life just the way it is -- plain and simple, nothing great and with neither one of them you might as well just continue your days staring at the computer screen everyday. Do well in exams and in life, thats the important thing, making right decisions.

* ~ For the first time, I actually felt I did quite well in my examinations, I could actually get straight As, no harm hoping and dreaming, at least gimme 6As ~*


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So I had physics today, one of the few exam papers which I actually had some time to spare. So anyway, I guess the worse is over for now, few more papers to go. After school, headed for lunch with my mom, then it was off to tuition. Mike (http://mikedotorg.blogspot.com) was really feeling weird in tuition, how can I say this, he "grew horns" the whole tuition. I'm trying to keep things decent in my blog kay? He did some things =X eyes moving. So anyway, after that, me and him together with a few guys went to a cafe, ages since I stepped in one, and after that, its all the way back home.


~* So far, my life in Form 5, had its ups and downs, there were moments to be remembered, and moments that would leave a scar behind, a life lesson. I still find it hard to believe though, in a few months time, I would actually be leaving high school and head to college. Time really flies when you're having fun huh? A big thanks from the bottom of my heart, to y'all out there, really, for everything. Everything that has happened, I thank you guys for it. My life would never be the same without you friends, glad we've met...

~Something for my Class2006~
**From the right row
Jon , always sleeping, in class or anywhere, and yet excel in his studies
Jabrull , performs better dissapearing acts than any magician
Jae Han , chilling fella, forever taking things easy -- Make a move one day kay?
Justin , I can't put it in words, he's a real good pal --Enjoy life la...
Wei Liang , die hard Chelsea fan, they won't win this season kay?
Joshua , always trying hard in everything
Cheryl , sweet and adds a whole chinese atmosphere with her singing - her singing is good btw
Sen Ming , cute and sometimes too quiet but really sweet - everyone says shes cute =D
Chin Wei , friendly prefect, known her for at least 10 years, just found out she watch korean dramas too
Wan Tian , reaaaaly smart, and..... reallly INNOCENT..
Sun Mei , pretty and Cheryl's singing partner -> her singing is also good
Carynn , a good friend with a huge talent for singing - Damn! Our whole class can sing! cept me?
Kar Yan , cute and funny... thanks for last year pressie again
June , friends for 11 long years!!! one of the few gurls who actually feels satisfied about herself - You get me?
Grace , sweet and caring - a gurl who finally got over Lee Ryan after those years..
Felicia , one who always smile...so sweet - keep smiling
Ying Min , looks can be deceiving - not that innocent, but shes a nice person
Mei Xin , people says she gets angry really fast, but so far, I don't see any anger at all...and shes my sis LOL
Yih Shin , socialable person - regretted not knowing you better last year, shes really a fun person to hang out with
Yi Lyn , friendly and a real nice person to talk to - tell me hows that scout movie kay?
Nikki , pretty, friendly and.... a girl that cooks!! plus point.. -- Still wanna try your cooking
Nicholas , talented in drawing.... all SORTS of drawing..point made - change your hairstyle after exam k?
Darren , its just girls and basketball - after so long, you finally did the right thing =D
Ming Han , another singer -- "horns" bugger
Syahirah , one of the most dedicated prefect in our class LOL
Siti Hajar , I think by far the most quiet girl in our class
Hanie , a real fun girl, funny
Afi , another talented artist, likes anime and mangas
Farhana , funny, whacky, friendly
Sashi , class monitor who likes cars, his driving? uhh...no comment.. its quite good actually, as long he's not late for anything
Jien Hoong , a good pal who i've known for years...and years to come - stick to one...
Jeff , funny guy who enjoys footie - eyes stop wandering around so much la
Kovienn , class would be really boring and quiet without him around,

Whats life without taking chances?
You've got to stand up for somthing
Even if theres a posibility you'd fall
Fall hard..
Take that road
Wherever it might lead
No matter where
No matter the reason
I will journey till the very end
I want you to know
I tried my best
To do the best I could
I had to give it my all
It's what I had to do
And..
I'll do it all again
And thats the honest truth
I did it for you
In the end
I'll still pick myself up
If the joruney stops
And continue on another road
~ Something worth sharing with you all ~

Take note WL..doubt you can read this anyway

So I've heard...
But where do I go from here?
Decisions are made everyday....
But why is it so hard to do so at this very moment?
I've been through it...
I've tried...
Taken risks...
Falled....
And managed to pick myself up...
Learn from my mistakes...
But am I willing to go through the whole thing again?
I am...
But..
I can't find any stepping stone around me...
More like I can't find it within me...
Not for now...
I can't...
I don't know how...
But the truth is...
Thats just me...
Afraid...

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Steve Irwin...
many thanks for sharing your great adventure with us..
you shall always be remembered...
as a star...
as a sport...
as a teacher...
as a adventurer...
as a guide...
as a friend...
God bless...
" CRIKEY!!! "
" Oh whata beauty!! "
" See how big that thing is? "
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So I'm writing this during an examination, weird huh? I read a friend's blog recently, and she did the same thing, writing an entry during an exam, after all, I got the spare time and I'm kinda bored too.
The skies look weird somehow, I mean it's just different compared to the last few days, maybe its just me....
Usually I can picture an image from the clouds, few days back it was a horse, then a head figure of Abraham. But today, all I see is, clouds, imageless clouds. Cloudy...thats exactly how I felt a few moments ago, not knowing whats happening around me.
For starters, I had exactly no idea on earth what was the cause of the problem, till recently...
The intention of actually hurting someone isn't right at all, but what did I do? There I sat dumbfounded, not knowing why the sudden mood change, and yet I blame myself, we did, maybe an action or mere words which I had accidentally said, and without me knowing, offended her in some way.
Heh, I actually forgotten the last time I had this feeling. When was the last time I actually said something hurtful to someone? 5 to 10 years perhaps? For me, as far as I know, it has always been easier to give compliments rather than to critisize someone in a bad way. I'm actually proud of myself already for not using any vulgar language for uhh...2 months =.=' Well the previous setting was 2 1/2 years, but that run ended when I heard something, and at that spur of the moment, BOOM!! I said that one word.. by saying just that one word, my 2 1/2 year streak ended, I regretted that very moment, why did I speak without even thinking, that thought me something new... and now I'm starting my again, 2 months so far...
Time really flies when I'm writing, about 3 more minutes and its time to hand up the papers. Guess I wasn't feeling different at all, this is going to sound weird, I actually pictured an elephant in the skies, oh wait, now it's a fish and... it's still a fish. At least now I know what caused it, lets just hope the ignoring ends....soon...
All you need is a little patience and creativity with a little bit of thinking, and everything should work out fine, same with the clouds, images will surely appear, if you really wanna see it, same with life, chances will only show yourself if you take risk, and creativity has nothing to do with it =.="
Just know that, there is never failure, only life lessons to be learned.