Little sneak peek at the whacky L3 class of Taylors University College...
not everyones' pic in here though, will try to get all the faces sooooon=)

The babes, fr left : Suzzane, Shereen, Lecturer ( Ms Azreena ), Priscilla, Ana, Jun, Jean Yi ( standing )
Front row, fr left : Peter, Terrence, David, Nep
2nd row, ft left : Jien Hoong, Wen Tzeh, Me ( Jian )
Standing : Keat Huat ( lets hope i spell it right ), Jonathan, De Yao, Hong

The babe : Mel
Fr left : Malcolm, Terrence, Me , Jien Hoong

Student Council Election - xplains all the banners and words
You see the highest floor there? Above "Vote Jon", thats where we usually go everyday to attend lectures.

That guy on my left - Dinesh, wasn't in the above pic

At Kopitiam,
Jun didn't want her picture to be posted up on9, so as you can see, shes missing, and
Terrence you don't belong to this table =.="
Priscilla, Jean Yi, Suzzane - Pretty as always.
Dinesh, tried to pose, but as you can see, he failed.

The Babes, fr left : Mel, Sonia, Shafira, Mun Yee, Shereen
Fr right : Jonathan, Malcolm

Intimidation...

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I never tried catching your words,
never tried understanding what it all meant,
I took all you gave me for granted.
Your words, actions...everything.
worse of all,
I took you for granted.
All those times,
you stood beside me.
I've lied, I've cheated,
you knew it all,
knew all my secrets I was hiding from you,
and yet
you still stood beside me.
Why was I such a fool!
A Mindless Idiot!
For not realising how lucky I was
For not treasuring the greatest gift of all.
Now,
when you're no longer here,
all I can do,
is shed tears of regret,
tears of sorrow,
which you can never see,
and will never will.
Reminiscing my past,
like the fool I am,
till the end of time.
~Jian

Econs test coming up on Tuesday, and I haven't read a thing. Wonder if I can still score. Anyway, I'll worry about that tonight. For the past week, I've been rushing to hand up my assignment outline on the due date. Knowing me, I did it the very day before. As if the piling work from maths, econs and accounts ain't enough, I had an extra assignment outline to write. That very Thursday night, I slept at 3am. And here I thoughts, without the existence of the 3 science subjects ( Biology, Chemistry & Physics ) , it would be a whole lot easier. I really felt dead the whole Friday morning, the endless supplies of Clorets and Gum had no more effect on me as I slowly shut my eyes. Thank gawd, I had an "extra break" that day, played a few games of pool, and I was wide awake again =)

Headed for badminton Saturday morning, I really forgot the last time I actually played. The first seven racquets I dug up from my storage all had snapped strings, the 8th was in the best shape. Met up with Pris and her friend - Joanne at Megah, De Yao came seconds after me. Well, we actually set the time at 9.30 but in the end, most of us weren't punctual, including me =.=" Went in, met with Mel and her boyfriend, hit a few shuttles, and the rest arrived later - Jun, Lemuel and Pam - sorrry la, dunno how to spell her name, so to be on the safe side, short form =) After everything, went to drink, and EAT, you have no idea how long I persuaded Lemuel to eat. Haizz.. went home later.

~ooo...i failed to mention, I broke my racquet string, and....um... I snapped Pris's racquet string too, really sorry bout that T.T

This pic is really special, wanna know why? Cos' I'm actually smiling...and....
I don't know how to do that =.="
LOL

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Do you know that every minute
someone dies.
Do you know that each time these things happen,
I pray it isn't you leaving my side.
Do you know that every time you breathe,
a baby is born into this world,
bringing joy to every family.
Do you know that there isn't a minute that pass by,
you aren't on my mind,
making me smile all the time.
Do you know what hurts the most?
It is knowing that few spoken words could change everything.
Being close for so long,
and yet not saying the words out loud,
it hurts...
how I wish I could turn back time,
erasing the pain,
that hurts the most.
~Jian

This is for all the users of P2P & BitTorrent using TMNet Streamyx. Waiting for hours and your P2P won't connect? You can no longer download anything? YES! It is because yours, no, OUR P2P traffic is being blocked and throttled! It doesn't matter if its eDonkey, BearShare, iMesh, SoulSeek, eMule, Kazaa, Kazaa Lite, Shareeza, Napster, Limewire, Azereus, BitComet, uTorrent, BitSpirit, BitConjurer, BitTornado...or even those using Skype or the iTunes music store, everything is being blocked! All thanks to the one and only ever so "wonderful" broadband service provider - TMNet Streamyx. Kudos!! Certainly lived up to the spirit of Malaysia Boleh!

EXPERIENCE INTERNET LIKE NEVER BEFORE!!
Jian says : I get it... I'm experiencing the Internet like never before!! TMNet Streamyx slower than 56k modem!

DOWNLOAD ALL YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS AND STUFF!!
Jian says : Download all your favourite songs and stuff? What you talking la TMNet!! Blocking all P2P. You do know lying is a SIN.

ENJOY INTERNET WITH SPEED BANDWIDTHS OF 512K up to 2MBPS!!

Jian says : Enough said, please click here to sign a petition, demanding TMNet to improve their broadband service.

This is a special entry DEDICATED to TMNET (you guys should really feel honored) , I'll post the usuals at another time. Right now, I'm just feeling *&@#$ , guess my downloads won't be finishing anytime soon.
Till next time, this is Jian signing off.... with nothing left to say to TMNet.

Just yesterday, I went 1u with a whole bunch of friends to celebrate a friend's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI LIANG!! ( sorry it was such a big group kay!! ) So with perfect estimation of the typical Malaysian timing, we set the time at 12pm, and by the time everyone was there, it was 1pm, right on schedule =P Though, I met up with Jae around 11, had some things to settle. Felt awkward as soon as someone arrived, being the "lamp post" wasn't the best feeling, so I met up with Darren, only to get trashed by him in foosball. I don't play at all, Pool is a better game =) Well anyway, at least I got to score 3.


Went lunch and played a few rounds of pool after that, ( Go Go! Lyn keep practicing, sure can wan ) and later to the movies - Death Note 2. Okay, I haven't seen Death Note 1, and I don't read the manga either, so I was seriously lost at the first 10 min. Kira? Light? L? Ryuzaki? What, what, why, why, who, who? Basically I was asking alot of questions at the start. And.... SHINIGAMI?? WHAT?? Bleach started running through my mind. On the whole, I thought the movie was alright, just alright, and damn freaking long - 2.30 hours. After the movie, stayed back a while and went for a drink with Wei Liang, Nich and KarYan. Stayed up all the way till 2am that very night, just to see MU lose to Arsenal 2-1, went to sleep disappointed.

A new student came to class today, and.....I didn't even get her name, guess I'll do it tomorrow, sorry bout that. 2 breaks today - went to Cafe with some friends, lunch, played a few games of pool. I never knew when the gurls in our class got so addicted to pool.. LOL. Maths was at the end of the day. Somehow, every time when its math, I'm always prepared to receive my lecturer's "advices". Ever since the first day, I could tell she "favored" me. No matter what I say, she surely has something to counter, so instead of answering back POLITELY, I guess I'll just be quiet....for now, when things are still acceptable =) But, today, the weirdest thing was, she never said a single thing, awwww... what an ODD day. Sat through the entire class with no problem at all. Before heading home, I bought...... Cappuccino Shake!! Pri-see-la all your fault wei, got me addicted to that bubble tea drink/shop =P

Jian signing off~

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Nice pic

Well, some of you may agree, some of you may think this is bullsh*t, personally I think its half true, and half false. Jealously, anger, manipulative = girls, though they are some guys who are the same. Some gurls can be filled with jealousy at the sight of their guy constantly being surrounded by gurls. Some guys can be overprotective at the sight of their gurl flirting away or just chatting with other guys. Guys take all sorts of mood swings from gurls, gurls take all sorts of rubbish from guys. Equal. But, after all of this, I somehow find that, a guy can really give everything to a gurl and in the end, when its all over, everything he has done was forgotten, he's left with nothing except shattered pieces of himself. Anyway, moving on, don't wanna waste my time debating bout whats right and wrong here.

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The rain was pouring....
Without shelter,
I stood at your door,
your gaze fixed on me,
peering directly into my eyes,
those hazel brown,
never shifted,
even for one second.
My mind blank,
throat dry,
I didn't know what to say.
It all happened so quick,
you lean closer,
and I knew what was coming next.
The feeling...
That feeling...
Can't be explained...
What I felt at that moment....
How I wish it wasn't true.
The door slammed shut.
The rain was pouring....
and it still is,
I stood there,
feeling no more,
that slap you gave me,
left a scar,
in my heart.
Left me,
shattered....broken.
~Jian

Woke up at 8am today, studied for my driving exam. Went to the Rilec Centre at bout 10.30, met with Chiak, Zhen, Wei Liang. All of them, having the yellow book in hand, studying, and I brought nothing. According to some, the entire process takes less than 2 hours, but, I ended up taking at least 3 hours. Seriously, I don't understand why some people need to take up the full 40min of the examination time, oh well...maybe people read slow. Anyway, one by one we went in, first up was Zhen, then Chiak, Wei Liang, and I was the last. One funny thing happen though, there was this American fella, taking the exam in the silent room, clicked and chose the answers swiftly, in bout 5 min he was done, out of no where, " F*CK " he shouted in the room - guess we know that he didn't pass the exam =) I wanted to finish the exam as quickly as possible, had another appointment in 1u - took 15 min, and.... I passed =) 49/50. After the exam, I made my way to 1u. Met up with Sen Ming and the entire gang, too many to list >.< so the dining ended with songs and a cake =) Gotta wake early tomorrow, so guess this is Jian signing off, take cares people!

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I will try to change, change for the better. I know I'm not perfect, but I would still want to try. People's assumptions about me, really hit me hard, brought me to reality, handed me facts. Things which I thought was alright, other people thought otherwise. Lets see where this brings me...

Wish you were here with me,
Just maybe, If I had another chance,
things would be different
Just maybe,
If time wasn't a factor,
things would be different
Just maybe,
If I was just myself,
things would be different
Guess I'll never know,
then again,
its best not knowing
Its best...
leaving things the way they are
crumbling pieces..
falling on me
these are the thoughts
goin through my head
random thoughts
which I simply wish to share..
~Jian

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A big shout out to Sen Ming!!
Sen Ming...
~ Happy Birthday Gurl!!! ~
14th January =)

Abs Myths

Uncovering the truth behind abdominals

Uncovering abs myths and facts about six pack abs.

Myth#1 Abdominal exercises will remove fat in my midsection.

Fact: You need to remove excess fat around your stomach in order to see your abs. The only way your going to do this is with a low-calorie diet and a weight-resistance program while adding cardio exercise. Ab exercises will develop muscles, but they’ll still be under your fat.

Myth#2 It takes hundreds of crunches to get ab muscles in shape.

Fact: Abdominal muscles are like any other muscle, they don’t respond to hundreds of repetitions. When you can easily do 15 reps of any ab exercise, you need to switch exercises or add resistance.

Myth#3 You have to train your abs everyday if you want a six pack.

Fact: Ab muscles can be over-trained just like any other muscle. You need to give your six pack abs enough rest to recuperate. Over-training will result diminished gains and soreness.

Myth#4 Men and women should train their abs differently.

Fact: Men and women all have muscle, which is trained the same way. If a woman wants a sexy midsection, then she’s going to eat correctly, follow a cardio program and train her abs the same way a man would.

Myth#5 If I stop training my abs they’ll turn to fat.

Fact: Muscles don’t turn to fat. If you stay active and watch what you eat you’ll keep your abs even if you stop training. But if you stop exercising and start eating junk, your abs will disappear.




~Helping you gain that six pack!

I'm bout to start my 2nd week in college now - Taylors University College. Theres really a huge gap between secondary school and college, its really different in many ways, I can't really put it in words, guess you just gotta experience it for yourself. Its more than just having the freedom to dress, the longer breaks, its much more than that. I'm kinda glad I got into my class, total of 28 people, with only bout 9,10 guys. Well actually, that ain't real reason. The first day I stepped into class, everyone seemed so quiet, is this what I'll be facing through out the semester? Total silence? Thats gonna be real boring. But, things turned out different, my class was actually hyper, fun, and happening , heck, I think the most happening class in the entire SAM. Nothing to really write bout now, till next time, this is Jian signing off.

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I had these dreams, in them I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
become a rockstar
There was hope in me
that I could take you there
But damn it, you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you, then I'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy

And then you bring me home
Cause we both know what it's like being alone,
I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

My gurl came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blonde hair
And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking
That these nights when we were drinking
No they never got us anywhere, no

Spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you

I miss you

01.01.07

Just last night I was in 1u for countdown, at first it was a whole bunch of us, then we split into two groups since one wants to go to curve and another wants to stay in 1u. Local artists such as Gary Cao Ge, Nicholas Teo, Disagree, Pop Shuvit were there, Genie and North all the way from Taiwan and Australia were also there. Though, some people left right after all the chinese singers sang their part, they couldn't care less if it's North on stage or Elvis, they just left. The cheers went down, at that moment, the international artists seem invisible. But, everything was still alright, countdown went well, fireworks were okay. It's hard for me to describe the atmosphere, lets just say everyone had a fun time welcoming the year 2007!!

Kar Yan!!! Thanks for your presents!!!

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Last thursday, few friends and I headed down to Genting. I brought everything cept my jacket, so basicly, the few trips to the outdoor theme park were enjoying and the same time, kinda freezing, freezing but fun. Anyway, we really made sure that nobody was goin to starve, one whole traveling bag was stuffed with food - reeaaaaaaly heavy!! I carried it =)

• Checked in Awana
• got to know the existance of the series " Bawang Putih Bawang Merah "
• missed the bus to the cable car station
• all of us felt lazy to wait another hour for the next bus
• decided to walk to Gotong Jaya for further options
• ended up taking the same bus we're suppose to wait for
• froze myself at the outdoor theme park
• ate alot
• spun Wei Liong, Sun Mei, myself to death in the Spinning Teacup
• headed back
• queued up for the toilet ( 14 sharing one room )
• huang ming speaks terrific chinese when he is high
• bread, bread and more bread for breakfast
• made another trip up to Genting
• haunted adventure was so-so la
• finally sat the flying coaster
• froze once more
• headed home

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Its 2007, but I can't seem to let go of 2006. Sure, college will be fun, but separating from friends will not. So much things I wanted to say, but nothing seems to come out right. We meet new people every now and then, make new friends, but will close friends in the past be forgotten to make room for new ones? Only we, ourselves, know the answer to that question. It seemed only yesterday that I was welcoming the year 2006, my last year in high school, and my last major high school examination, how I prayed for the year to end fast, prayed for the examinations to be over. How different it is now, not wanting to give up year '06 so easily. Life goes on. Today is the first day of the new year, a new year, a new experience, a new resolution. Look forward to year '07 and live everyday to the fullest, I know I will. Close friends will forever be close friends, enemies and strangers will turn into friends. Forget them we will not, remember them we shall, let them be a piece of our memory forever.

It's been a while since my last entry, tons of things had happened since then.

Few days ago, me and a whole bunch of friends ( a total of 19 ) headed out to Pangkor - Checked in to Coral Bay. The hotel was alright, though we didn't understand why the management had permanently close down the entertainment ( pool, billiards ) room. Headed to the beach on the first day, the rain came pouring down couple of minutes later, so all of us had to walk back to our hotel soaking wet. I'll fast forward. After dinner, we decided to rent bikes and cycle around the town and i'll admit, it was one of the not-so-smart ideas. We didn't know where were we heading and there weren't many street lights around. Headed back to our hotel. Fun started. We bought few bottles of coke, bags of ice, and we opened a JD. ( Please refer to YiLyn's blog if you have no idea what is JD ) I, being the bartender for the entire trip, started mixing drinks for everyone, the gurls got light, guys got the mild. NOBODY GOT DRUNK FOR THE WHOLE TRIP!!! That very night, I also lost money - I place my bet on MU, and they lost 0-1, what was that about? The next day - banana boat, jet ski, island hopping. Fast forwarding. We headed back on the third day, the bus ride home from the jetty was kinda "messy". Those who slept in the bus including yours truly, got toothpaste on their hair courtesy of Jeff and Kov. Well there were those who couldn't stand this little prank and started erupting - I shall not mention names, and the "colourful" words used.

Wednesday, went out with my family in the morning and in the afternoon, I headed to Curve. I'LL SAY IT OUT LOUD, I REALLY DON'T KNOW MY WAY AROUND CURVE OKAY, SO SUE ME. I won't get lost, but I don't know where are all the shops and all. Went to RedBox and met up with everyone - Cheryl , Cheryl's cousin ( she can really sing!! ), Sun Mei, Ming Han and Darren. Few minutes later, Wei Liang joined us. Sang a few songs here and there, met a few other people at RedBox. Then, out of nowhere, all of them surprised me with a birthday cake, really wasn't expecting anything. Thanks so much to all of you kay!!! So after everything was done, I headed back at around 7.30, had a dinner to rush to, my birthday dinner with me family, LOL.

How la? Lots more to say, think I'll keep it short, running out of time, goin out soon. I started my driving course the next day and the next, I went curve again, to cineleisure, watched a movie - Curse Of The Golden Flower, wasn't such a nice movie. After the movie, went to a christmas dinner. Saturday, went to another christmas party. After that, headed down to AC in Subang with my bro and friends just to play foos - I still suck at it.

Thats all for now, Jian signing off!
Thank you everyone for your presents!!! Very much appreciated!!!

A monkey me friends bought for me cos according to them, it looks like me. Thanks!!

So prom was finally here. The venue - Renaissance Hotel. It started off with a guitar performance and then followed by dinner - main course, which I really expected more. Next was a something-to-do-with-fire-performance followed by a band - Furniture. The lead guitarist was supposely a former student from our school, but it doesn't really matter, half of the people present weren't paying attention to them at all. I really feel bad for them, having a gig at a function where nobody gives a damn about your presence, OUCH! Another band perfomance followed, and after that some games, and some singing and dancing. Jin Ern was voted prom king, and prom queen went to Vineeta - I got no complaints, go gurl!

After prom, a bunch of us headed down to Ruums, more drinking and dancing. Went back to the hotel round 3.30am. 15 people all in one suite, really crazy. So we decided to split, the couples can get the bedroom, while the rest of us just stayed outside the living. I had the privilage to share the couch with 2 people, not bad kay, at least I got the couch. Mel on one couch, me, June and Chiak on the other, Sashi and Darren on the floor, Grace on the chair, Mike got the other chair, the rest all in the room. So all of us talk and sing, yes sing, whole night till dawn. Played "sexy truth or dare" in between, well, more like only dare. Crazy things happened and shall never be revealed to anyone outside the room. At around 6am, everyone decided to take a nap, not me though, my stomach was grumbling like crazy...hungry. The grumbling sound could actually be heard across the room. Since I couldnt sleep, Mike, Chiak and me, went out, walk few blocks outside to hotel just to find a decent mamak. So the three of us never slept at all. Everyone was awake at around 10am, well kinda. Mel was still kinda blur, talking things that weren't related, and I never knew by pants could turn people on or in other words make people feel h****, amazing... At bout 11am, all of us checked out.

Woke up at 12pm today, gawd, really, I think it's the latest so far, I know some of you even wake up at 3pm or even in the evening, but for me, its the latest. My usual is always not later than 10am. Well anyway, at least all the tiredness is gone..for now. Next stop, Pangkor. Till then, this is Jian signing off with a few pics from prom, I'll admit, I'm not photogenic, not one bit ( my face is mostly cut and paste ), but I still try to look my best beside all the pretty faces, life goes on.
Take cares everyone.

Grace, me and Kar Yan

Sen Ming & me

Jien and Jian

Lay Ai & Me

Me & Mel

Jian, Justin, Wei Liang, Jae Han

Me & Cheryl

Me & Nikki

Me & Steph

Standing fr left : Wei Liang, Joshua, Jian
Sitting fr left : Kovieen, Jae Han, Jon, Nicholas

People urge us to do this,
do that,
just go for it they say,
you'll have nothing to lose.
But yet, in the end,
you lose it all.
I say,
if something is bound to happen,
then let it happen, with time, let it happen,
FATE perhaps?
We can't tell,
but we can go till the very end,
and find the answer for ourselves,
independently.

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Sorry guys, I couln't turn up the last minute, for everything, SH!T happens....it always does.

~Dont get me wrong, its my life I'm trying to live, not yours.

I'm finally done with my last paper, exams are officially over for the year 2006. Why am I even blogging now? Next time kay, I'll be back... I need inspirations..

Alas, the long wait is about to be over, another 4 days to go. So far I've been doin al'right, well thats what I think at least. Chemistry was hell but at the same time, it went from hell to not-so-hell. I don't think I had much of a problem with objectives, maybe few mistakes here and there, but nothing close to 10% wrong perhaps? Subjectives on the other hand, I lost the will to think. I flipped open the first page, and there staring back at me, was a GINGER, of all things, a GINGER. So I went on reading the question, maybe it'll be something like --> " This is a GINGER, can this be eaten? " Instead the question was "what sickness can ginger cure?" I starting digging my homemade-remedy-from-my-mom book in my head and started thinking, why didn't I pay attention to this chapter anyway. I finally decided on an answer " Windy / Bloated Stomach " LOL. So basicly, the subjectives wasn't a stroll in a park at all, in fact, I dont think one could even stroll, crawl perhaps? Crawl in the park =.=' okay time to stop there. As soon as it hit 2 in the afternoon, the next paper began, experiment writing and all, I was relieved that I was able to answer the questions, as far as how many was correct? I dare not say. Now, I sit here, 2 more subjects to go, Moral ( why do we even have this subject ) and Biology, lets just hope that it won't be anywhere near hell....
This is Jian, signing off, good luck to everyone sitting for their exams.

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I opened my eyes to a new surrounding. Nothing was familiar at all. In fact, everything was pitch dark. I threw my hands frantically just to get hold of something. The sound of breaking glass filled the room moments later, I had just hit over something. Where am I? Something wasn't right. I struggle to find any source of light, but my efforts were in vain. There I stood, in darkness, not knowing what to do next. My hands continue searching and at last I got hold of some curtains, I drew opened the curtains wanting to see the shining light, but everything was still in total darkness. No wonder I wasn't feeling right at the very start........ I had lost my vision..blind. I collapse on the floor, not accepting the truth. I crawled all over just to find a door, to escape from this nightmare.

I turn the doorknob and I made my way through everything blindly. I ran as fast as I could, not thinking about the consequences. The next thing I knew, I felt a dislocated ankle. I fell from the stairs, thumbling and falling awkwardly, landing on one of my ankle. I continue crawling as my tears roll down, I was in pain.

I held my head up high, pushed myself up, I was blind, but it seems as though I know where I wanted to go. Dragging along my dislocated right foot, I went on. Bearing the pain, holding back the tears, I was told to be strong, even though I know it in my heart it hurts. Everytime I felt the piercing pain, I shifted my thoughts on something else. Long after, the pain wasn't affecting me at all. It seems like miles, but I held on, blinded. Moments later, I find myself on the ground once more, this time, the pain was coming from by lower torso and my head. I couldn't move. It seem that I was knocked over, by a person. I heard footsteps around me. Walking back and forth. None of them offered me a helping hand, I was left on the ground. Some even trampled over me. I couldn't see the figures but I heard and felt everything around me, happening to me. I couldn't bear the pain any longer, I screamed in agony, but was ignored. My instinct told me to just give up, but something told me to hold on, only for that much longer.

Just how long more would that be? Minutes, hours, days, I passed out, not knowing anything...

I finally opened my eyes, gaining sight for the first time after so long. I knew it then, knew all the pain everyone was suffering, and I felt it. Felt it in every part of my body. I stared below me, watching, I'm glad that I'm able to stand here, from above, guiding everyone, every person, sharing the pain and suffering, for I'm everyone's guardian angel.

Few more days, I wont exactly say the suffering will be over, 'cos is ain't really torture, but more like an obstacle which each and every one of us have to face, sooner or later. These last few days, lets just all hang on, and do our very best, and don't give up till the very end. Even if you've made mistakes in the past, now is not the time to cry over it, nows the time to prove to yourself to everyone, so put your whole into the exams and do you're very best till the very end. Good luck to all.

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I opened my eyes to a new surrounding. Nothing was familiar at all. In fact, everything was pitch dark. I threw my hands frantically just to get hold of something. The sound of breaking glass filled the room moments later, I had just hit over something. Where am I? Something wasn't right. I struggle to find any source of light, but my efforts were in vain. There I stood, in darkness, not knowing what to do next. My hands continue searching and at last I got hold of some curtains, I drew opened the curtains wanting to see the shining light, but everything was still in total darkness. No wonder I wasn't feeling right at the very start........ I had lost my vision..blind. I collapse on the floor, not accepting the truth. I crawled all over just to find a door, to escape from this nightmare.

I turn the doorknob and I made my way through everything blindly. I ran as fast as I could, not thinking about the consequences. The next thing I knew, I felt a dislocated ankle. I fell from the stairs, thumbling and falling awkwardly, landing on one of my ankle. I continue crawling as my tears roll down, I was in pain.

I held my head up high, pushed myself up, I was blind, but it seems as though I know where I wanted to go. Dragging along my dislocated right foot, I went on. Bearing the pain, holding back the tears, I was told to be strong, even though I know it in my heart it hurts. Everytime I felt the piercing pain, I shifted my thoughts on something else. Long after, the pain wasn't affecting me at all. It seems like miles, but I held on, blinded. Moments later, I find myself on the ground once more, this time, the pain was coming from by lower torso and my head. I couldn't move. It seem that I was knocked over, by a person. I heard footsteps around me. Walking back and forth. None of them offered me a helping hand, I was left on the ground. Some even trampled over me. I couldn't see the figures but I heard and felt everything around me, happening to me. I couldn't bear the pain any longer, I screamed in agony, but was ignored. My instinct told me to just give up, but something told me to hold on, only for that much longer.

Just how long more would that be? Minutes, hours, days, I passed out, not knowing anything...

I finally opened my eyes, gaining sight for the first time after so long. I knew it then, knew all the pain everyone was suffering, and I felt it. Felt it in every part of my body. I stared below me, watching, I'm glad that I'm able to stand here, from above, guiding everyone, every person, sharing the pain and suffering, for I'm everyone's guardian angel.

So I finally got my internet back up and running, one whole week without internet access can be really painful, of all things, why must the lightning strike the line, taking my modem along with my network card to the afterlife. According to my bro in Aussie, GOD wants me to study. I'm in the middle of my final and the most important exam of the year, but no harm using the com once in a while i guess.

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Now, my bro back from Aussie, half way through my SPM examination, another 5 papers to go. Lets just say so far, everything was okay, I mean, do-able. The first 2 days of my exams, I actually had the nerve to wake up middle of the night, really crazy, looking back now, I wondered why, should have been prepared before all of this. Looking back now, all the past days, brings back thoughts. Just today, a friend of mine "vandalised" - notice the inverted, its something he do everyday so it's just like a habbit, can't really say vandal =P, a classroom. The projector board hangging on the wall was brought down with a loud bang, chairs crashed everywhere, sadly though, everyone including me came out of the class laughing instead. The boards hangging outside every class was "strip" off all its stripes, which will be now used on people bedroom doors. These things dont just happen anywhere, it only happens here.

Memories...sad and happy...joy and sorrow.... we experience them everyday. Live with or without the past, bearing the sorrow before and now, know that you're living for what lies ahead, not whats behind you. Turning back the sands of time only to remember joy, if not, dont turn the hourglass at all, just continue on. Everyone of us has something to hide, whether its a habbit or an incident in the past, no matter what it is, when the time comes, you have to bury them once and for all. Why do you plan to save someone who is drowning when you're already at the bottom of the sea? The more I type, it seems to be going nowhere, more and more crap.

Next paper on Tuesday, wish me luck kay? I'll be doing the same.
I know all of us can do it, few more days,
hang in there for the last few papers,
don't bother waking up in the middle of the night la,
wasting time...thats what i think though...
Jian signing off...
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A big shoutout to couple of people...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFFANY!!
sorry I couldn't get you a present...
"cheng" you after exams k?

Happy Birthday KARmun (23 Nov)!
Take cares in Aussie...

For the past few days, I'm having some difficulty connecting to Streamyx. It all started on Friday night, maybe I was just plain unlucky, but on the day where I'd make full use of the internet, everything went wrong. After trying for over 2 hours, tweaking the modem, settings, everything, I gave up. Went on watching TV instead, on a Friday night. So the next day, I rang TMnet up, I was all prepared to be put on hold, or prepared to face the answering machine, cause its always "All our agents are currently busy, please hold, we'll attend to you shortly" or something similar. But, as soon as I dialed, and pushed a few buttons, an agent took my call right away, I think his name is Akmal, friendly guy, TMnet! give that guy a bonus or something. Few minutes later, he transfered me to Technical Assistance. Heres when the nightmare started. My early preparation proved useful afterall, I was put on hold with the constant reminder of " All our agents..bla bla bla... " and the really annoying background music playing. And whats worst is, my mom was using the house phone that day, "boiling porridge" with my aunt from Canada, so I had to resort using my handphone instead. I stared at my watch as I see the minutes go by, there goes RM1, oh, there goes RM3, oh wait, there goes another RM3. After 15 minutes, my call was finally attended. As usual, I had to follow a few procedures. After everything was done, they decided to assign me a technician - ITS ABOUT TIME! .

So I wasn't online for the past few days, but, I decided to try my luck today, and who would've guess, I can connect without any difficulty, and... the technician is still coming on Monday or Tuesday. Heh, at least I still have some problems to complain to him - frequent disconnection, difficulty in connecting, slow speed etc. This brings me to this, blogging, decided to post a new entry since my last post was ages ago. I think this is going to be my last entry for now, at least till my exams are done, maybe I'll update days between my exams, see how it all goes.

Another few days to go and it's graduation, all of us will be parting ways shortly. Shortly after graduation, SPM ( O levels ) starts - exam period 2 weeks. So till then, its Jian signing off.



No...!! I'll be missing her concert!!! Jolin!!

Less than a month to go, 24 days to be exact till I sit for my exams, am I prepared? Guess I'll just have to wait to see for myself. At least theres a bright side, after my exams, the hols await me, the days where I no longer have to put on a uniform await me. I know its gonna be hard for gurls, they all have to make an effort to wake up extra early just to decide what to wear, and pray that nobody else in campus is wearing the same clothes, shoes also perhaps, earings? I dont think earings matter right? =\ For us guys, no planning requred, just select and wear.
Total time required ?
Gurls = 1 hour ++
Guys = 15-20min
In the end both males and females looks equally great..So guys win this round.

Of course I'm looking forward to college life, but I'm surely gonna miss secondary life too. I mean, the memories you carry with you, one big difference will be the toilets. I doubt you'll find anymore interesting "graffitis" on toilet walls, all directing to educators or the head. No longer will you have to hold your breath or endure the natural "aroma". So if people think public toilets are bad? You haven't seen the worst yet.

Moving on with a more decent posting...
Who do you think has stronger and more enduring legs? The female or the males? The answer is clear and simple. Lets look at football, a pitch with 22 guys running around trying to score, they run for a full 45 min, a short break, and continue to run for another 45min. Lets look at basketball, more guys running, baseball, more guys running ( I know females also participate in these sports, football and basketball, but they're slower ). So who is the winner here? Guys? Lets do a simple test, you place a male sprinter on one side, and on the other, a normal female. Their goal? run towards a mall with a big sign that says " Grand Sale Up To 80% Discounts! ". Females have proven again and again that they dont need to take a break during a shopping spree, they can spend hours and hours walking, shopping, and not feel tired at all. The funniest and the most bizarre thing is, they spend 5 hours walking around, but they only purchase 1 of 2 garments. The winner for this round?
Gurls = Legs tiring out during shopping is never in their dictionary
Guys = Walking around in malls shopping without break? 1-2 hours MAX
Gurls take this round...

End of round 1 results : Guys = 1 Gurls = 1

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Gazing up at the skies,
the stars are no where to be found on this beautiful night,
not a sparkle or a twinkle to shine a light.
I lie down on the field, shutting my eyes,
praying and hoping deep inside,
that my prayer will be answered by the other side.
But as I opened my eyes,
there were still no stars in the skies.
As I turned and look at you,
I finally understood why,
why was there not a single sparkle in the sky.
It is simply because someone stole all the stars,
and put them in your eyes.
Your eyes sparkle even in the darkest nights,
twinkle everytime to make things right.
I'm forever lost while I gazed into your eyes,
but I'm not afraid as long as you're by my side.
Wait, the last 2 lines don't sound right. =(

What do you see each time you look into the mirror? A reflection of yourself? Or a reflection of emptiness? Emptiness inside, feeling lost. You splash water over your face, expecting the cooling sensation to take your mind off things, but you're efforts were in vain. You're mind starts to swirl. You know you brought this over to yourself, and yet, you can't seem to let it slide. How do you cope? You know it ain't easy, but you still hang on, each day...Why? You live each day, showing no regrets, but deep inside, you're feeling every single sting. You kept on telling yourself, what should be done, but no matter how hard you try, there will still be traces, traces in the sand which can't be covered up, no matter how hard to wind blows. You're tough on the outside, fragile within, but you never show your emotions, yet, the people closest to you, they know. They're the ones holding you together each time you crubmle. You feel sorry at times, that you can never care for them as much as they cared for you, that you are not there each time they needed you. It takes time, for broken pieces to mend, traces to fade. You know that, you know people care, but you don't know what to do anymore...

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Just this afternoon, I was having my lunch in a restaurant, saw 2 kids, a small girl and a small boy, playing and running around, I remember me and my bro were like that too when we were young, about 3-4 years old. I still remember, it was in Selangor Club ( the one in town ), everyone clad in formal attire would be enjoying their meal, my bro and I would be running around, making alot of noise, I have to admit, it was really irritating for the people dining there. Few days later, a letter was sent to my parents, asking parents to control their children's behaviour - make sure they don't run around at the club. Few days later, we went back to the club. This time, in the dining area, a sign was up, "Please ensure that your children don't run around" or a sign saying something like that, I've forgotten, it was more than 10 years back, till now, I still remember my bro and I were having so much fun back then.

Back to the present, the 2 kids were having so much fun. Each of them taking turns, " Daddy! Daddy! I wan step on your feet, then you walk me there k? " The father did what the kids wanted, the face on the kids says it all, they were smiling and laughing the whole way. Then something happened, the small girl, called the obviously elder boy by his name, I found it weird, shouldn't she be calling "KorKor" or something? Not wanting to ponder upon that for too long, I continue my lunch while watching them play. A woman walked by few moments later, the father said to the boy " Your mummy's here already, time to go.." The boy went to the mother's arms and both mother and son walked out the door. " Bye daddy! " That was the little boy's reply. I stop munching at that moment. I started to understand, why did the little girl called the boy by his name, instead of "KorKor" or something similar. This time the father carried the little girl in his arms and sat down. "Lets go, mummy's here already. " the father said few moments later as a woman walked over. All 3 of them exited the restaurant, moving the opposite direction the Mother and the little boy went. It was all becoming clear to me, I was saddened by the sight. I know its hard, especially for the little ones, not having an opportunity to turn to both his or her father or mother when they need to, only having the chance to turn to one.

Those who are going through these circumstances, I can't say I know what you're going through, but, I know one thing, you all are the strongest, you all possess the strenght and courage within which I can never imagine to have. My appetite for that hour was gone...

If you ever need a shoulder to lean on,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to listen,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to share the moment with,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to pour your heart to,
I'm here.
Why am I doing this for you?
Cause when I needed a shoulder,
yours' was available.
When I needed someone to listen,
you spend hours listening.
When I needed a friend,
you were always there.
So its the least I could do,
to be by your side everytime,
and each time the entire world walked out on you.
I'll always be there.

Another 30 days to my exams, wish me luck kay. So far, I seem to be on the correct path, the path which would actually lead me to score in my exams. Everything seems right so far, I'm recovering from my multiple unwell symptoms and my results ain't that bad, even though I knew I could've done better. No matter, I just gotta look ahead, and hope for the best, for I know the best has yet to come...

You're not alone,
when the lights go out at night,
when you're feeling lost inside,
you're not alone.
You're not alone,
when your world is falling down,
I will be the one around,
you're not alone.
~You're Not Alone by Shayne Ward


If you ever need a shoulder to lean on,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to listen,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to share the moment with,
I'm here.
If you ever need someone to pour your heart to,
I'm here.
Why am I doing this for you?
Cause when I needed a shoulder,
yours' was available.
When I needed someone to listen,
you spend hours listening.
When I needed a friend,
you were always there.
So its the least I could do,
to be by your side everytime,
and each time the entire world walked out on you.
I'll always be there.

The semester is coming to an end, a big shoutout to all of you guys, for everything, all the memories will surely be treasured, best of luck to everyone. Thanks a bunch.

As soon as I woke up on Sunday, I knew I was in for a long day. A few steps, seems like thousands. Fatigue was kicking in during the afternoon. I still managed to take the long troublesome walk to my room to study. The next that followed caused me to suffer, maybe suffer is a strong word, um..caused me to feel a little unwell. It started off with my entire body feeling like it was on fire, god knows how high my temperature was. Each time I closed my eyes, I felt the heat scorching my face and my eyes. But that was only the beginning...

The next morning, soar throat and throat irritation kicked in. I sat by my bed, downing few mouths of water but nothing seems to make me feel any better, nothing seems to help me to overcome my tiredness. My first cough in the morning caused my throat to hurt, immense pain, I prayed that it was my last cough of the day, but it wasn't. As if it wasn't bad enough, runny nose joined in. It was the killer combination - Fever, throat irritation, soar throat, runny nose.

It was 2am on a Tuesday morning, my eyes were wide opened. Everytime I lied down, my mind kept spinning, filled with thoughts, useless ones, kept me from sleeping. Finally got some rest round 4... My condition worsen when I woked up. It was time pay a visit to the doc. My temperature was sky high, 38.5. According to the doc it was really high =.=" So I got the usual meds, panadol, cough medicine etc. At 11pm, I decided to call it a day, with hope that I could actually get some rest. But once again, woke up round 2am, this time, my mind was filled with different thoughts - Plastic anemia, transplants, ( all from watching HOUSE, the best drama ever, when i'm sick ) and many others, all useless once again. 3am, it was only at that time, did I fell asleep again.

So today is Wednesday, I'm definitely feeling better compared to the past few days. The sick me didn't have the enthusiasm to turn on the computer at all, that explains the late update. Anyway, hope I get well real soon, 30+ days to examination.

"Mummy! Mummy!" She called out loud.
Her little voice drowned by the noise of the crowd,
In the hustle and bustle of people hurring about,
It was easy to ignore a little girl's shouts.

Clutching her teddy bear in her arms,
She searched the sea of faces in panic and alarm,
Her mother was here just a moment ago,
Where she was now, the poor thing did not know.

Slowly but surely she started to cry,
Tears fell like rain from her big blue eyes,
The harder she sobbed, the more terrified she became,
When she suddenly heard a voice calling her name.

"Emily!" There stood a man dressed in white,
His robe radiated with a dazzling light,
On his back a huge pair of bird-like wings,
Upon seeing him she immediately stopped crying.

"Tell me, are you lost?" he asked gently,
She nodded her sweet head vigorously,
"Come," he said lifting her onto his shoulders,
"We'll find your mummy, together."

Up he flew into the sunny blue sky,
She gasped with delight at this man who could fly!
She looked down below at the crowds of people,
She could see all of them without any trouble.

"Look theres mummy, the lady in red!"
The flying man smiled and nodded his head,
He put her down carefully onto the ground,
Near the lady who was frantically looking around.

"Mummy!" cried Emily, and ran to her mother,
Who saw her coming and hurriedly embraced her,
"Oh Emily, please forgive me! I thought I'd lost you,"
Choking back her tears, Emily replied,"Me too!"

She stopped for a moment and turned around,
But the kind, winged man was no where to be found,
In her heart, Emily knew as she went on her way,
That her guardian angel had come to her rescue that day.

As you're reading this please bear in mind,
That I will be beside you anywhere anytime,
As your guardian angel and your friend,
To pull you through till the very end.

Few more days and the holiday ends, and its back to exams once more. How I wish they could quit wasting our time and just chunk us the Major Exam tommorrow. The main exam is like, uh.. 9, 10 days, but our trials lasted for at least 2 months. Even at this very moment as I'm writing this, I still feel the guilt of not studying, my mind constantly reminding me that I have less than 2 months to achieve the results I want - straight A's of course. Guess it's time to wake up from my long sleep afterall, who am I kidding here, the major exam ain't tommorrow, it's in less than 2 months time, so I think I should really spend my time wisely =D ....studying, instead of watching Korean Dramas =.=" I'll leave it right here...

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For once,
I have nothing to talk about,
my life,
simple for now.
Or you can say I've no inspiration,
to write at the moment,
only clouded by guilt.

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I'll just share something with you all...


"Mummy! Mummy!" She called out loud.
Her little voice drowned by the noise of the crowd,
In the hustle and bustle of people hurring about,
It was easy to ignore a little girl's shouts.

Clutching her teddy bear in her arms,
She searched the sea of faces in panic and alarm,
Her mother was here just a moment ago,
Where she was now, the poor thing did not know.

Slowly but surely she started to cry,
Tears fell like rain from her big blue eyes,
The harder she sobbed, the more terrified she became,
When she suddenly heard a voice calling her name.

"Emily!" There stood a man dressed in white,
His robe radiated with a dazzling light,
On his back a huge pair of bird-like wings,
Upon seeing him she immediately stopped crying.

"Tell me, are you lost?" he asked gently,
She nodded her sweet head vigorously,
"Come," he said lifting her onto his shoulders,
"We'll find your mummy, together."

Up he flew into the sunny blue sky,
She gasped with delight at this man who could fly!
She looked down below at the crowds of people,
She could see all of them without any trouble.

"Look theres mummy, the lady in red!"
The flying man smiled and nodded his head,
He put her down carefully onto the ground,
Near the lady who was frantically looking around.

"Mummy!" cried Emily, and ran to her mother,
Who saw her coming and hurriedly embraced her,
"Oh Emily, please forgive me! I thought I'd lost you,"
Choking back her tears, Emily replied,"Me too!"

She stopped for a moment and turned around,
But the kind, winged man was no where to be found,
In her heart, Emily knew as she went on her way,
That her guardian angel had come to her rescue that day.

As you're reading this please bear in mind,
That I will be beside you anywhere anytime,
As your guardian angel and your friend,
To pull you through till the very end.

~Aside from the last stanza, the rest is not my original work.
Got my inspiration from somewhere,
Hope you enjoy reading it as much as I do.

It's 12.50, waiting at Times, I thought I had the TYPICAL Malaysian timing figgured out, being 20 minutes late, but I was still the earliest. Couple of minutes later, Jae Han came, finally someone... to play pool with. Guess it was the right decision after all to kill time, 'bout 1.30 then the organiser, Mike shows up, talk about punctual and time management. Where was everyone? Me and Jae Han were told that the show was at 2, and we're suppose to be there at 12.30. Only to be told again that the movie's at 4, I was speechless for minutes. Once again, just to kill time, we headed to Coffee Bean, had a few drinks, chatted a lil. Around 3.30 the next person came, Chiak, I no longer want to talk about punctuality anymore. Went to the cinema after that. While I was standing at TGV, waiting to enter, I spotted this cute girl clad in casual top and a skirt, talking with an accent, seems to be from an international school. I seriouly think she was cute, but Jae Han they all didn't think so, so I ended up getting remarks like " OMG, no!! You call that cute?" , " She's below average la " , "You call that chun ar? It's nothing la ", I guess everyone has their own individual taste then, guess my expectations don't match with my peers high expectations,the model body and looks . Anyway, it was time for the movie, Rob-B-Hood. If you haven't watch that movie yet, I suggest you do so, worth watching. Right after the movie, bought a book, rushed home and headed to my Grandma's place for dinner.

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Playing in my ears,
music had and always will be part of my life,
they bring back memories,
actually shedded tears listening to them.
Through the lyrics,
I experienced joy,
through the lyrics,
I experienced sorrows.
But, when it's all set and done,
after the music hits the last note,
the sorrows will disappear,
thats what makes music so special.
The melody is irreplaceable,
as a life companion which will always cheer you up,
no matter the situation.
Thats why music is part of my life,
and it will always be till the very end,
I hope that it will be part of you too.

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Exam week is finally coming to and end, well, almost. So I had Biology and Maths today. Since last year, I'm constantly struggling just to cope with Biology. Just to get a high credit, for me, it had always been an uphill task. For once, today, I felt that I could actually achieve that, thats what I'm hoping for. Kinda surprised that I could actually do my essay, for the first time, I actually understand my essay, it meant something, it made perfect sense, it's not the usual bull- I crap about just to fill the spaces. Maths was quiet easy, I learned something new right after the exam, P_ij actually means "horizontal" and "vertical" ! aha! Thats one question which I thought was a printing error, so there I was, praying hard, closing my eyes, randomly choosing an answer. The outcome? My prayer was answered, I got it correct, amazing....

So, these past few weeks, I'm actually kinda hooked on Korean dramas, how did that happened? I wonder... A person who doesn't even bother watching Korean dramas, one day, turns on the TV, watch 5 min of his first korean drama ( Marrying A Millionaire ), the next thing you know, he's busy following every episode. Does he stop there? No. He follows another drama ( My Girl ). Weird.. Speaking of weird, last weekend, my parents actually told me, they saw a nice movie on Astro, I imagined some premiere movie or something, but it was actually " Freaky Friday ", the weird thing was, my mummy - thats what i call - was more of the horror movie fan, and my daddy, he was more of the chinese action packed with 'kung fu scenes, out of no where, they both ended up watching Freaky Friday, weird...but Freaky Friday was seriously a nice show, forgot the time when I actually watched that movie, maybe 2 years back or last year? Now i'm just looking forward to My Girl, 8.30pm 8tv. Listening to music " Jolin in the house, DT in the house, our love in the house..."

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Reliving the past,
its not something many will choose.
But, what if, you had no choice at all?
You're force to live the way things are, everyday.
Words, imaginations, thoughts,
triggers the past,
crowds your thoughts.
Whats there to be done?
Face it? or run,
and keep on running,
for the rest of your life.
Running relieves you for a certain time,
but, how much stamina you actually haved left in you?
As time passed, your legs hurt,
your muscle aches, cramps,
you feel tired, exhausted.
Instead of feeling exhaustion,
maybe its time you give it a thought,
on how to face it instead of running,
ask yourself questions,
what?
why?
And once you've had the answer,
you never have to continue,
running on that same track for years,
with the same worn-out shoes ever again,
cause the path to the stadium will be shut, tightly.

~Does it actually make sense? LOL!
No matter what the pain you feel, be it inside or outside, keeping your grief bottled up isn't the best way, and will never be, shoulders are there around you, ears are there, waiting, waiting for you.

School was quiet, with no exams for today(thursday) and tomorrow, everyone seems to be sleeping at home. The early school hours started off with a scholarship talk from Taylors. Then it was classes as usual, well, suppose to be. The first period of the day, was finally the time for me to shine, in many ways which I had never imagined before, I was playing football. Being one of the few skilless players ( other sports is fine, but footy, I'm LOST ), stand-pass-kick was my normal routine, no dribbing involved. Jeff reinjured his ankle that game, he's one guy who actually gives anything for football. So in the end, Sashi had to actually step in as a physio, twisting Jeff's ankle, the weirdest thing happened when he starting moaning, more like pleasure than pain, whats with that, its school guys! snap out of it! With half of the class not present, the noise level was a little lower, mostly because some of us were filled with emotions after finally knowing our exams results. Though that didn't stop us from enjoying the rest of the day. So after school, Jien and I headed for tuition. That day, tuition was extra tiring, considering I didn't have the time to catch a nap after reaching home late. So basicly, the whole tuition, my head was fishing, drooping, coming up again, and then drop. The 1 min toilet break I had to freshen up, made all the difference, splashing water on my face never felt so good =.=" I was all awake again.
All of that happened yesterday...

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I tried lying to people around me,
I tried lying to myself,
but,
no matter how hard I try to hide it,
people still notice,
guess it wasn't that easy after all...

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Its the weekends, so I'll guess I lay off the books for a while... for now at least. Ever since we were born, we were told to excel in our studies, get good grades in our exams, so we'll be guaranteed a job, financial security and lead a happy life. Yet, now we see jobless grads all over. Does education play a major role in our life? Of course it does, without education we'll be incomplete. But, does it GUARANTEE a successful life? I mean its good to get flying colours, don't get me wrong, but in the world we're living in now, theres more to life than just getting good grades, we must enjoy life. In those days, just by completing high school, just by having a degree, you could get a job anytime, just by driving a small car , you're considered rich, those were the days. Now? A degree don't secure you a job anymore, a degree shows what are you're qualified in, in these days, everyday actions decides the next. It sets the routes you're going to take. Its up to you to lead a successful life or a dull one, have yourself working around the clock everyday making money for someone, or have people working for you? Choose to wait for an opportunity, or take the trouble finding one and puting it into good use? Decisions and actions create opportunities to success. Flying colours, education, are there to support, being the pillars of success. You need them both. With just one you will be living life just the way it is -- plain and simple, nothing great and with neither one of them you might as well just continue your days staring at the computer screen everyday. Do well in exams and in life, thats the important thing, making right decisions.

* ~ For the first time, I actually felt I did quite well in my examinations, I could actually get straight As, no harm hoping and dreaming, at least gimme 6As ~*


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So I had physics today, one of the few exam papers which I actually had some time to spare. So anyway, I guess the worse is over for now, few more papers to go. After school, headed for lunch with my mom, then it was off to tuition. Mike (http://mikedotorg.blogspot.com) was really feeling weird in tuition, how can I say this, he "grew horns" the whole tuition. I'm trying to keep things decent in my blog kay? He did some things =X eyes moving. So anyway, after that, me and him together with a few guys went to a cafe, ages since I stepped in one, and after that, its all the way back home.


~* So far, my life in Form 5, had its ups and downs, there were moments to be remembered, and moments that would leave a scar behind, a life lesson. I still find it hard to believe though, in a few months time, I would actually be leaving high school and head to college. Time really flies when you're having fun huh? A big thanks from the bottom of my heart, to y'all out there, really, for everything. Everything that has happened, I thank you guys for it. My life would never be the same without you friends, glad we've met...

~Something for my Class2006~
**From the right row
Jon , always sleeping, in class or anywhere, and yet excel in his studies
Jabrull , performs better dissapearing acts than any magician
Jae Han , chilling fella, forever taking things easy -- Make a move one day kay?
Justin , I can't put it in words, he's a real good pal --Enjoy life la...
Wei Liang , die hard Chelsea fan, they won't win this season kay?
Joshua , always trying hard in everything
Cheryl , sweet and adds a whole chinese atmosphere with her singing - her singing is good btw
Sen Ming , cute and sometimes too quiet but really sweet - everyone says shes cute =D
Chin Wei , friendly prefect, known her for at least 10 years, just found out she watch korean dramas too
Wan Tian , reaaaaly smart, and..... reallly INNOCENT..
Sun Mei , pretty and Cheryl's singing partner -> her singing is also good
Carynn , a good friend with a huge talent for singing - Damn! Our whole class can sing! cept me?
Kar Yan , cute and funny... thanks for last year pressie again
June , friends for 11 long years!!! one of the few gurls who actually feels satisfied about herself - You get me?
Grace , sweet and caring - a gurl who finally got over Lee Ryan after those years..
Felicia , one who always smile...so sweet - keep smiling
Ying Min , looks can be deceiving - not that innocent, but shes a nice person
Mei Xin , people says she gets angry really fast, but so far, I don't see any anger at all...and shes my sis LOL
Yih Shin , socialable person - regretted not knowing you better last year, shes really a fun person to hang out with
Yi Lyn , friendly and a real nice person to talk to - tell me hows that scout movie kay?
Nikki , pretty, friendly and.... a girl that cooks!! plus point.. -- Still wanna try your cooking
Nicholas , talented in drawing.... all SORTS of drawing..point made - change your hairstyle after exam k?
Darren , its just girls and basketball - after so long, you finally did the right thing =D
Ming Han , another singer -- "horns" bugger
Syahirah , one of the most dedicated prefect in our class LOL
Siti Hajar , I think by far the most quiet girl in our class
Hanie , a real fun girl, funny
Afi , another talented artist, likes anime and mangas
Farhana , funny, whacky, friendly
Sashi , class monitor who likes cars, his driving? uhh...no comment.. its quite good actually, as long he's not late for anything
Jien Hoong , a good pal who i've known for years...and years to come - stick to one...
Jeff , funny guy who enjoys footie - eyes stop wandering around so much la
Kovienn , class would be really boring and quiet without him around,

Whats life without taking chances?
You've got to stand up for somthing
Even if theres a posibility you'd fall
Fall hard..
Take that road
Wherever it might lead
No matter where
No matter the reason
I will journey till the very end
I want you to know
I tried my best
To do the best I could
I had to give it my all
It's what I had to do
And..
I'll do it all again
And thats the honest truth
I did it for you
In the end
I'll still pick myself up
If the joruney stops
And continue on another road
~ Something worth sharing with you all ~

Take note WL..doubt you can read this anyway

So I've heard...
But where do I go from here?
Decisions are made everyday....
But why is it so hard to do so at this very moment?
I've been through it...
I've tried...
Taken risks...
Falled....
And managed to pick myself up...
Learn from my mistakes...
But am I willing to go through the whole thing again?
I am...
But..
I can't find any stepping stone around me...
More like I can't find it within me...
Not for now...
I can't...
I don't know how...
But the truth is...
Thats just me...
Afraid...

****** +++++++*****
Steve Irwin...
many thanks for sharing your great adventure with us..
you shall always be remembered...
as a star...
as a sport...
as a teacher...
as a adventurer...
as a guide...
as a friend...
God bless...
" CRIKEY!!! "
" Oh whata beauty!! "
" See how big that thing is? "
******+++++++******

So I'm writing this during an examination, weird huh? I read a friend's blog recently, and she did the same thing, writing an entry during an exam, after all, I got the spare time and I'm kinda bored too.
The skies look weird somehow, I mean it's just different compared to the last few days, maybe its just me....
Usually I can picture an image from the clouds, few days back it was a horse, then a head figure of Abraham. But today, all I see is, clouds, imageless clouds. Cloudy...thats exactly how I felt a few moments ago, not knowing whats happening around me.
For starters, I had exactly no idea on earth what was the cause of the problem, till recently...
The intention of actually hurting someone isn't right at all, but what did I do? There I sat dumbfounded, not knowing why the sudden mood change, and yet I blame myself, we did, maybe an action or mere words which I had accidentally said, and without me knowing, offended her in some way.
Heh, I actually forgotten the last time I had this feeling. When was the last time I actually said something hurtful to someone? 5 to 10 years perhaps? For me, as far as I know, it has always been easier to give compliments rather than to critisize someone in a bad way. I'm actually proud of myself already for not using any vulgar language for uhh...2 months =.=' Well the previous setting was 2 1/2 years, but that run ended when I heard something, and at that spur of the moment, BOOM!! I said that one word.. by saying just that one word, my 2 1/2 year streak ended, I regretted that very moment, why did I speak without even thinking, that thought me something new... and now I'm starting my again, 2 months so far...
Time really flies when I'm writing, about 3 more minutes and its time to hand up the papers. Guess I wasn't feeling different at all, this is going to sound weird, I actually pictured an elephant in the skies, oh wait, now it's a fish and... it's still a fish. At least now I know what caused it, lets just hope the ignoring ends....soon...
All you need is a little patience and creativity with a little bit of thinking, and everything should work out fine, same with the clouds, images will surely appear, if you really wanna see it, same with life, chances will only show yourself if you take risk, and creativity has nothing to do with it =.="
Just know that, there is never failure, only life lessons to be learned.